Journal #3

If I was held hostage in the present day, it would be awful. The things that kidnappers do to their hostages these days are terrible. Kidnappers torture their hostages to get information out of them. For example, If i got a job as something really important, and got to know secrets that were not released to the public, I could get kidnapped. Terrorists or whoever had kidnapped me would torture me to get that information out of me. To be honest, I am weak. I would just give it up after a little while. Hopefully I would not get killed after releasing the information, because that is normally how it works. If some random guy kidnapped me and held me hostage for money, that would also be a bad experience. If the kidnapper really just took me and kept me it would not be as horrible as a experience, because they probably would not kill me. I would be so scared its unbelievable if I was actually kidnapped. Pure terror, all the time is what I would feel. Obviously I would listen and do what ever the kidnapper would tell me because I would be so scared that something bad would happen to me. You hear stores about how some hostages went against their kidnapper and escaped and lived happily ever after. I probably could not do that, I would just be too scared. I probably would not talk and really hole up inside myself and shut down as a defense mechanism. But probably if a good opportunity arose, I would do all I could to escape and get away from the kidnapper. If I did get away, going back into normal life would be extremely hard. I would always be looking over my shoulder to see if the kidnapper was there, or having flashbacks of the experience, like post traumatic stress disorder. All in all, being held hostage would be an awful experience, and most likely, I would not handle it well.